An interesting title for a blog post, am I right?!
My emotions seem to be in a flurry and "suttle" was the only thing that seemed to sum them up.
Anticipation. Regret. Contentment. Anxiety. Fear. Giddiness.
Such a weird combination of things that fill my mind.
I overthink. I get my hopes up. I over evaluate. I rely on myself.
God, forgive me for doing things by my own strength.
The song "Nothing Without You" by Will Reagan has really been my anthem lately.
Frankly, RAing is difficult. Trying to navigate romantic feelings is tough. Nursing school is a beast of a task. I long for simplicity, but life isn't simple. I can't force God's hand or rush him.
Lord, thank you for teaching me patience. **I smirk as I say this so that maybe Christ will get the hint that I am tired of waiting.**
My heart is invested in Grand Island right now which brings in a whole swell of emotions.
I care for the girls and long for them to know Jesus.
Sometimes I doubt that I am doing enough. Am I talking openly about my faith? Am I inviting them to ministry events? I hope to work on that.
I compare myself to Allison, but I need to be reminded that we each bring different gifts and talents to the table. One does not do the job better than the other, we just do it differently.
I am thankful for this little corner of the internet. Just my thoughts and me. :)
I am ready for a period of being refreshed or just relieved from my thoughts. How do I do escape my own thoughts? I don't know...
Not that my thoughts are negative or depressed, they are just heavy. They are busy and scattered. Maybe it's ADHD. I couldn't say.
God has blessed me with so many great people this year. People that speak life and bring joy. People that talk about Jesus and are passionate to share his love. People that care about me; my hurts and my praises. They are present and I am thankful. Go God!
I think this'll do for now. Duces.
P.s. This is a picture of me doing the splits!!! I had NO CLUE that this was possible. Just casually dropped into the splits last September and this happened. Minor detail: I pulled my hamstring in doing this. Worth it!
